Should I know?

I know I am late already, I will post the other text as usually. No excuses other than my mind being not where it should have been.

What would I give to know more? To know what others, think and others do. Is there something I should stop doing? Is there something I should keep doing? Is there something I stopped doing, but should pick up again? What would I give to have a little spy that tells me more.

This or similar I imagine that the spying started. Wanting to know more than one should. Maybe there was once someone that was good at learning information and sell it off for profit. Sure, it might almost certainly Started with gossip. But it evolved from there. To snitches and then finally to the spies we know of today. Embedded in organisations, gathering intel and betraying it to the superiors, who do who knows what with it.

But I sometimes would like to know what people think of me. If I should or should not have done things. It would help me being better and improving. But are there sometimes where you should not know? Cause we are right the way we are and if others think we are not it is not where we should be. Does it matter that I dislike that guy who dropped his litter on the floor? It doesn't matter to him. I most certainly will not go out of my way to tell him and what impact would it have on him if he’d know what I thought of him at that point in time?

Maybe ignorance is really bliss and we should not want to know what others think of us. But sometimes it just keeps nagging in the back of my head. For some people I want to know, because they are important to me, or I want them to be important to me. Yet I cannot know. Maybe I must not know, because it would change who I am to them. And those whom I am important to, they will tell me their mind for dropping that litter and it will matter to me, I will apologize, and I will pick it up and be better for it.


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